Marta

I really do. He lives in japan and it's just way to far away from here. When he comments me on myspace saying how me misses hanging out with me while he plays video games. I know he thinks of our family but when I hear him talk about what he did over the weekend with his wives family I start to think... Does the other side of your family really matter. I don't really care if anyone reads this at all, I just needed to let some of it out.

Yep Yep cool cats! It wasn't really a big deal but yes.. Today I skipped school to be in a commercial haha. It was for a store that my mother manages. They thought I had great hair so they wanted me to advertise what I got!! I will post it on here when I get it in two weeks =) I seriously can't wait to see how it turns out!

On another note, Drugs change people. I used to have two guy friends and they started doing drugs last year, they were my best guy friends too. I tried to talk them out of it in the beginning and one of them actually promised me he would stop, just for me. I believe him too. Guess not, next thing I find out is that he is back doing it again. It was a week after he promised. I wish they would just realize it is a waste of time and money to do it. Because it seriously is. Right now I feel like crying, they have changed so much. One of them wanted me to tell my mother to lie to his mom. I hate being used, and its happened a number of times. They used to be so fun to hang out with, and now they are just burned out and all they care about is lunchtime when they can go walk half a mile away from the school to get high before they have to get back. Honestly it is pathetic. I don't care if you try it once or twice, just don't let it take over your life. I just want to go up to them and just cry so I can show them how much they have hurt me the past year. Want to know why they started smoking? Here is the story.

It has been a year and a little over three months since my friend Justin passed away from a heart attack at school. It was a sad day, and the day he died my two guy friends went over to Justins house with his brother who was 17. When they went over there to grieve with his family his brother lit up a joint in front of them. I think they got the idea there because they saw when he was high that it made all his problems go away. Shortly after that my two friends started doing pot. They thought it would solve their problems, but it actually made it worse. Now they are broke and burnt out. I have tried to talk to them about it but it doesnt make it better. Whenever I see those drug commercials on tv I wonder what they actually think when they see those. One of the guys used to talk to me everynight on the phone for 4 hours and now he doesn't say one word to me. I honestly am thinking of going and crying in my moms lap for a while =(

Rest In Peace Justin

i really need to put up new videos!! those are from tooooo long ago!